Disorder in the dis order

Some of you know I have had carpel tunnel surgery on the left hand and it was successfully released. However, I HAVE to do the right hand and according to tests - the right is much worse than the left. This has been no picnic - I can't believe how much I depend on BOTH of my hands. While going through this fiasco, I found out that I should go see an oncologist. I won't get into all the details right now, but I can't even get out of the dark from one issue to the next. There is this black cloud following me all the time. The hand issue needs immediate attention and so does the oncologist appointment - so I ask questions as any good patient does and I am told to take care of my hands because I won't heal well during radiation or chemo treatment.

Did she just say radiation or chemo to me? What? really? So, you have my full attention now. Looking back at the whole scenario, I was just plan stupid. I just wasn't thinking there was a problem. I was thinking I was going through a routine exam, although it took 4 visits to complete the routine exam. So, I went for a 2nd opinion today and this doctor didn't nearly have as much difficulty as the other doctor, however, he did tell me that he can understand as to why there was trouble. So, I sit wondering if that trouble is a true medical issue or problem. I did ask, but I felt like the doctor avoided answering the whole question and wants to wait for the test results to come back and we will talk further after that.

Meanwhile back at the ranch, I am still healing from the carpel tunnel surgery. I went to OT therapy the other day and I was yelled at, because apparently I am not supposed to be using my hand yet and not for another 3 or 4 weeks. Do they know I am having the other hand done next Tuesday??? I will have 3 kids (ok, boys people - my kids are all BOYS) home on Christmas break. I can't believe I am going to go through with all of this chaos.

I know, I know my blog hasn't changed at all. I really underestimated what I was going to be able to do. I wasn't able to do anything. I have an idea of how I want to change my blog and going about that change will take time. I am constantly in disorder, never organized and I have huge plans for everything I just never get there, but I always mean well. Until next time ... Do all the good you can... as often as you can... to as many as you can... Blessings